, part of my list .

These are the few flashbacks that I got when I close my eyes and think of youu : 

. we gazed in each others eyes for a few minutes because we didn't know what to do / say.

. we walked around and were banging each other side to side and you whispered something sweet to my ear

. you were laughing at me and when I asked why, you said that I still owe you that kiss

. I was looking down while walking and all you could do was looked me in the eye

. you were about to kiss me but then you pussied out because my cousin was right behind us

. we were arm wrestling and were fighting like childish grown ups

. we were on webcam, and you were staring at me doing stupid stuff without me knowing it

. you gave me a hug goodbye but was hoping for something better to happen.

. we were flirting playfully and laughing at each other for trying too hard.

. you tried to get me tons of times, but I keep saying no and you didn't give up.

. me cracking your head out to make you figure out such simple questions

. you taught me Mathematics online, and made me better in it.

. you tried giving me your best advice , even though it sucked, it still worked :)

. you told me about your past relationships and made fun of me about mine. Haha.

Thinking about the silly memories that we had together these past few months makes me sad, hurt n happy all at once.

Was it all a lie? Was it all true? Were you faking the times we spent together or was it the real you? I need to know the truth. Because I don't like to be surrounded by secrets and lies. I want to learn you. I want to get to know you. I don't mind if you're a dickhead, I just need you to trust me and to be honest with me.