it's complicated .

We used to be together, but then I left you after a while because my feelings for you faded.'

You were still not over me and neither was I but , we weren't together. 

A year passed and I got over you after a few months but you were still into me, I felt very uncomfortable - no questions asked.

You waited and waited for the right moment to ask me to be yours again, then one day you did , you popped the question - 

I wanted to accept your love but there was something holding me back. Something inside me that kept me saying No. "No, don't do this again. Don't hurt him again. Don't make yourself regret." So I did, I said no. You were crushed, so was I :\

Everyone keep telling me that I'm such an idiot for letting you go ( especially Nadiah, I selalu kene lecture ).

The truth is that , my feelings for you is always changing. Like :

first , i like you . then the next , i dont like you. It's just so complicating this way.

I don't know what to do so I thought that the best way to make you happy is by saying no than by saying yes and see you hurt in the end.

Now, when I see you with another girl. I have this feeling inside me, it's not jealousy.

I don't get jealous because of those kinda things, no.

But, it's just a feeling, I don't know what's it called. And this feeling bugs me all the time.

I've been trynna get this feeling outta my chest, so I guess blogging about it is the best way. 

Haih'

I'll post another one when I feel like it , LATERS ALLIGATORS.